Who would like to see inside my heart? Of course you would! Ha! Every heart has a story to tell and beauty to share. My heart contains lots of fresh flowers, clear mountain air, warm sunshine and the usual turbulent waters, stinky mud and dark forests that all we humans posses.
Why would I want to reveal my heart?
1. Balance of sharing. I am blessed in my work to be allowed deep inside the hearts and minds of my clients. People whom I have only just met share their deepest yearnings, their scariest fears, their painful wounds, their darkest thoughts and they tell me secrets they have never dared to tell before. They open their hearts with trust and courage. My job is to beam love and acceptance at each adventurer who has the courage to say yes to life and dive into the chaos to find peace. I journey with them through life's challenges to the refuge and silence that is the essence of who we are. My clients constantly inspire me to keep opening and sharing.
2. Vulnerability is Power. If I have learnt anything on my journey through life it is that when we have the courage to be authentic, open up and reveal the darkness within, the light can then enter. Our most powerful moments are those when we acknowledge our struggles and our humanness while keeping our eyes on the truth that lies beyond all human struggle.
So I'd like to share a little of my story and a few pockets of my darkness in this weeks blog. I do so in honour of all those who have entrusted me with their secrets. I couldn't walk with others through their darkness if I hadn't journeyed through my own dark cupboards to find peace. Below is a snippet of my journey.
During my birthday last week I was reflecting on my actual birth. Three weeks before I was born my dad was in a serious car accident. It may sound weird but on some level I can recall the moment my mum received the news. Her whole body went into shock, emotional shutdown and she switched into practical survival mode. She had a young daughter of 2 years, a brain damaged barely alive husband and a new baby (me) in the womb. When I finally arrived my mum was at the most stressful point in her life, my dad was recovering from a dance with death and was dazed and confused and my sister was in and out of hospital with asthma. I arrived into a time of chaos.
My mum describes me as a quiet and happy baby. I quickly took up my role in the family as the peacemaker. I brought peace, positivity and joy to the chaos. I have spent much of my life being drawn to people in their times of chaos. I worked in hospitals with the disabled, the dying, the mentally ill, the sick and the injured. I found my place very young sitting beside people in their most chaotic moments and brought peace and clarity.
I also found that I could easily hide behind being the therapist. By focusing on others all the time I could avoid my own pain and pretend that I had things sorted. But as life flows you can never fake it for too long before you are slapped with circumstances or tidal waves of emotion that force you to look within. There was a little girl within me that yearned to be supported in the way that I offered others. Over the years I have dived into my own darkness to uncover the pains of growing up with a brain injured father and the impact this had on our family. I have spent years travelling the world spending time with healers and masters to heal the pain within me and to find the truth beyond suffering. AND the journey was well worth it!!!!
The process of healing and surrendering to life is a constant journey and I continue to playfully find a balance between receiving others vulnerability and sharing my own. I encourage you all to open your hearts and share your vulnerability. No healing can occur until we open up and be authentic and real. Positivity and getting on with things will only get us so far. We need to balance these with the courage to be vulnerable so that we can uncover the peace we all yearn for.
3 steps to be powerfully authentically fabulously vulnerable!
1. Write down your vulnerabilities in a journal. Share your darkest fears and doubts on paper. Admit to yourself what darkness lurks below the surface. Write until you have got it all out. Then write yourself a supportive response. Be the clarity and support you seek in others. Offer yourself counsel and advice from your own wise instincts within. Shine your own light on your darkness.
2. Share one vulnerability to a loved one today. Honestly admit a doubt or fear that you would not normally share. Be seen and authentic without an expectation of support in return.
3. Book a guidance session with Moi! If you've ever flirted with the idea of doing some juicy nitty gritty diving into the mud with me then go for it. You deserve to be supported too! Many gems await! (Online via skype or in person)
I'd love to hear your comments on vulnerability below and share this article with your tribe as we celebrate being real and authentic! Whoop whoop!