Behind my words of wisdom and my weekly tips for peaceful living is my own sensitive heart....ooops I mean lioness heart!
Ok well it's both!
I've had a few people lately look at my photo's on facebook and read my weekly glowing words of wisdom and assume that my life is all peaches and cream but rest assured there are some bitter lemons in there too!
So this week I'm going to show you 'under the hood' and share some of the real truths about my life as an online coach/counsellor living my dream on a tropical island!
I have spent years staring at my navel (meditating).
I have spent decades digging amongst the muddy waters of my emotional wounds.
I have sat at the feet of many masters.
I have visited healers all over the world.
I have skilfully guided and supported many people through their most painful moments and inspired them to live their dreams.
AND yet I still get stuck in the mud some days too.
I have grumpy days, sad days, frustrated days and painful days.
I doubt myself, I can be hard on myself, I fear many things and I compare myself to others.
I have shy moments, shameful moments, annoyed moments and disappointed moments.
I burp, fart, sneeze, get pimples and have negative thoughts.
I have dedicated my life to living a peaceful and authentic life and this means looking my own demons in the face at each corner.
When I decided to move to Bali I had huge waves of doubt arise. The hardest part was moving away from my supports and my amazing tribe.
The other scary part was my work was mostly hands on (massage) and face to face counselling. I wasn't sure that I could survive offering only online courses and online sessions.
BUT if I have learnt anything on my path, it is to trust my instincts... so despite the waves of objection... here I am... living my dream in Bali.
Some days I miss having people who know me inside out at my side... but I am slowly creating a Bali tribe.
Other days I am eating tropical fruits by the pool while doing Skype coaching sessions and am overwhelmed with gratitude for such a blessed life.
The online world is currently booming so my work is flowing nicely and I have adjusted to the amazing power that Skype sessions offer. I have noticed that people will open up even more on Skype because they are in the safety of their own home and personal space. Online coaching seems to attract people who would never normally seek counselling. Rather than seeing it with the old stigma and a sign of weakness they see it as an empowering and spiritually awakening process that offers them the tools and support required to really thrive in a sometimes lonely world.
I personally have had lots of big emotional waves come up since living in Bali. The Bali deep heart cleanse... I like to call it!
I have followed my own advice and breathed love and acceptance into every emotional wave. No wait... I've actually wrestled with a few.. but I surrender to my emotions much more these days so they pass through much faster.
I've also reached out to my supports near and far to help ride through the storms smoothly.
So my main point of sharing my heart is to dispel the illusion that life is a constant happiness ride for some... it's not!
Truth is... no matter how great somebodies life looks on the outside... they are human too and will also face challenges in their own heart.
Especially when we choose to live outside our comfort zone, we are regularly challenged to grow and evolve.
The key is in our level of acceptance with whatever is flowing. Rather than trying to change what we are feeling we can learn to embrace whatever arises and move through it to the peace that lies beneath.
Instead of striving to feel good all the time, true freedom comes from welcoming each and every colour of our emotional rainbow... yes including black!
Being at peace doesn't mean skipping through the daisies all day singing la la la lala... it means enjoying the adventure wherever life takes us... through muddy swamps, dark caves and big crashing waves. This is awakening... plain and simple... to enjoy what is.
My wish for YOU is that you love and accept yourself as a divine being and an emotional human and don't expect yourself to be anything other than who you are. You are amazing... feelings, flaws and all!
As always I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments below and please share the love with your tribe. Hugs from Bali!
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